what the future holds

of course, being christmas time and all, loved ones and friends are constantly asking me what i would want for christmas and stuff. i am announcing to the world right here and now that i dont want anything for christmas. i say this with all my heart. please use your money for other people and loved ones who you know what presents to get. or give you money to charity like the salvation army or toys for tots or even aj's kids crane thingy. that'll make me happy.

ya'll know that me being me, i love christmas and i love giving generous gifts during christmas especially when i got the extra funds. but this year i decided to give a lil more to help out the people. last friday night on my way home from kuya's house, i decided to stop by aj's crane (aj form channel 933) and donate the cash that i had to the kids. im not gonna say how much i gave, but it was pretty generous and i wish i could give more. i told hula that i didnt know if i would have time to stop and pick out toys for the kids and since i was passing by already i wanted to give them that but use this money to get all the good toys that you could get. i walked away with a big smile on my face and i felt good. i hoping that next year i could do more things to help out people in need, along with helping my family and loved ones more often when they need me, no questions asked.

so yea, next year...rather next month i turn 25. HOLY CRAP! i know technically its still pretty young, but dude its borderline getting old! like its the first time in my life that i feel....well panicky and i dont know how to stop feeling like that. why panicky you ask? for one single dumb ass reason: my lingering single status and that fact that all of my family has to decided to point that out to me every time i see time. one day i might just break down and cry. im gonna be 25 years old and i still dont know how to go about getting a date, let alone how to get a boy im interested in be interested in me. CRAP IM JUST GONNA BECOME A NUN. i love god, i love church. im religious. why the crap not haha. oh geeess i hope i dont resort to that.

me...becoming a fighter. LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, IN THE RED CORNER COMING STRAIGHT OUT OF MIRA MESA. WEIGHING AT A WHOPPING 105ish...i think...maybe 100...god i hope not...fighting for the boxing club and making her fighting debut...RAAAAAAACHHHHHHHELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL *INSERT NICKNAME HERE* VELAAAAARDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! and the crowd goes wild! i still dont know the exact date, but it'll be in the beginning of february, i know i said end of january, but hey i dont plan the shit, i just train for the shit. so please please please come...i swear i'll take care of tickets if money is the problem. it'll be the one time when i need the support of the people i love around me. i dont think i can do this alone.

so after that, im heading to the motherland in april. oh yea somewhere in between christmas and spring i plan on going snowboarding with anyone and everyone! ok back to the PI. i cant wait. im so excited...so much has happened since the last time i was there. cousins finishing college, some starting college. some moved out and got a place of their own cuz they got jobs. some have relationships now. others are just plain growing up. im excited...i wanna just kick it everyday, take a weekend to lay on the beach at boracay and tan. haha

june im thinking about doing the 10k camp pendleton mud run....jeff brought it up and im really interested in it. i think it'll be a good challenge for me...i mean i can run 10k now, but in the mud through an obstacle course is a whole different story, right? right! we'll see. so that would mark the beginning of summer. and that would mean i might be going guam/hawaii for a couple weeks to spend with my cousins and head back to SD with them. i hope that comes true. and so far thats what i got planned. oh yea SF in october for my cousin's wedding WOOHOO.

SO somewhere in between all them plans i wanna go to SF with mo, mel, and kick with them with linh. i still need to visit kristine in seattle and watch the fish fly at fisherman's warf. i hope i can do it all. i wanna do it all. i owe it to myself. haha

well thats all...thanks for stopping by. LOVE YA'LL!