life changing commitments

I woke up a little earlier than normal today because I had to leave for work early to pick up bagels for breakfast for the department. After brushing my teeth and taking care of morning business, I decided to weigh myself. I normal don't weigh myself until Friday, but this morning I was kinda curious. This morning I weighed........115lbs. I haven't weighed that much in 3 years. This means that I have lost a total of 40lbs since January. I am soooo close to my goal. 5 more pounds man. I think this last 5 pounds are gonna be a bitch, but I'm damn determined to get this done.

Now, a lot of things were going through my head the whole day. The whole day at work was kinda like i wanted shout it to the rooftops until my lungs gave out and say, "LOOK BITCHES!" Or some dumb ass thing like that. At the same time I just wanted to keep my cool and go about my day. For the most part I did. Except I did tell 3 of the girls I talk to the most at work. It was kinda nice to let out something like that...like a secret or something. The girls were like, "dude how are you gonna celebrate?" I was thinking about it and how do you celebrate? I guess shopping right? haha

I am very proud of myself though. Come on, who wouldn't be, right? Other than finishing college, this is one of the biggest accomplishments I've ever made. It seriously was no piece of cake man. I've totally changed my eating habits, but I do have my cheat days, I push myself to the limit when I work out, and I don't let anything discourage me from achieving my goal. Kickboxing and Muay Thai have given me that extra push I think. That sorta competitive environment to kick harder, punch harder, move faster than the person next to you comes out of me. Out of working out and training, I've made it a conscious effort to not impose myself on everyone else's daily routine because no one wants someone telling them you shouldn't do this, you shouldn't eat that, right? I made this change for myself and myself only. I never expect anyone else to do the same as me. If anything, I want to be an inspiration to anyone looking for change in their lives whether it's with weight, school, or a bad situation they're in.

I still have a lot to work on within myself though. Yea, for the most part I play the "laid back, confident, happy-go-lucky" chick, but I do struggle with stuff within myself. Just like lots of women, I'm very self conscious. When it comes to guys, well we all know my story...I HAVE NO STORY. I think, I'm slowly coming out of my shell. I'm hoping that with God by my side and the help of Muay Thai that I begin to build more confidence in myself. I need to be stronger.

Ok well that's all. This was longer than I thought it would be. Thanks for stopping by!

PS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS APRIL JOY CALALAY!