you for real?!

thats what i told my trainner yesterday when he said, " i wanna try to get you ready for our NEXT FIGHT NIGHT". and this was while i was doing a squats. i nearly fell on my ass. yea i know, in the beginning of all this craziness i told him, as well as the managers, "yea dude i wanna fight." so yea...i believe the next fight night is 3 or 4 months from now. yes, i know, my initial response was more like me wanting to run away, but i've thought about it and you know what...I WANNA FUCKING DO THIS. i wanna see just how tough i am and how much i can push myself. so, if my trainner says im good enough, and i actually do this, will you guys support me and come out to see me and stuff? PLEASE?! i dont think i would be able to do this alone.