cough cough

yes...i have a cold/cough/thing going on. it could be worse...oh well. other than that im great.

this weekend was nice and chill. on friday i saw invincible with quyen and jason....it was a feel good movie. too bad marky mark only takes his shirt off once and even then you couldnt see anything cuz he was putting on an ace bandage. oh well...i must admit he's not aging well...at least in the face. aww he's was hot in italian job though.

saturday was family day. we went to MEDIEVAL TIMES!! YAY thats always fun! my mom and dad really enjoyed it. sometimes its just nice to be with the family especially when we're not fighting.

sunday i didnt feel too hot and i didnt go to church...sorry god. basically kicked it the whole day. and that was my chill weekend.

something wierd did happen though. i had a dream on a couple days i ago...i think it was saturday night. i had a dream that was getting married and out of my 23 years that i've lived i have never had a dream where i was actually getting married....funny thing was i could kinda see the guys face...but not really...but it did feel like i knew him...oh oh and the twist...the part where i knew i was totally dreaming was the guy that made my wedding dress was one of the dudes from project runway....the old married crazy dude with glasses. i dunno...i just never had a dream about getting married before...ever...dont you think that its kinda backwards though? me dreaming about marriage but no dude in my life? oh what a crazy life i live..hahaha

hmm....oh yea happy first day of school to all the state kids. good luck and happy studying.
one last thought...man...im dying to go snowboarding already...DANG HURRY UP AND SNOW ALREADY!!

just doing some thinking

couple things on my mind:

DANITY KANE CAME OUT TODAY AND ITS SOLD OUT EVERY-FREAKIN-WHERE. shit those damn stores shoulda ordered more...wtf guys

so i went to work today and i just realized i have 3 weeks of vacation left. then 20 more weeks of school....2 quarters....4 classes...well 3 classes and 1 lab. i dunno if i should just go all out for the next couple weeks or just save all this energy for when i finish or something.

i cant believe i'll be finished soon. but i also keep thinking....geees...what woulda happened if i didnt fuck up and i graduated last year like i was supposed to. would i have quit the theatre like i planned to or stayed there working every saturday night?

i have this overwhelming feeling that when i finish school all eyes are gonna be on me to help with the financial problems of my family in the philippines. like if i dont through some money their way, everyone will be disappointed in me. i feel like im obligated to help them out. i dont want to feel like im obligated. i want to.....well just want to help them out...u know...out of the goodness of my heart...without my mom dropping hints at me to send some money cuz this cousin needs tuition money...this cousin needs school supplies...this cousin needs new uniform clothes. its not like i dont know they need some help...ya know?! i dunno....anyone who knows me best knows that i help out because of the goodness of my heart and not because someone tells me to do so. oh well right.

tomorrow wouldve been my cousin-in-law's birthday...may she rest in peace. what if i go visit her tomorrow and her family's over there...god i hope theres not drama and they ask me all these questions about my kuya and stuff. speaking of which...him and his girlfriend are finding out whether the baby's gonna be a boy or a girl. kinda wierd huh? god i hope all the family dramas smooth out soon cuz im seriously over. i feel really bad for my godson. the kid needs some stability in his life. he's only 7 years old and he's been through sooo much already.

and last but not least....the thought that never leaves me mind...but gets put on the back burner every once in a while...god i think im gonna be alone forever. i know it kinda takes an effort to meet mister right but what happens if ur not even interested in anybody? or worse...what if no one's interested in you? then what? im so used to just being on my own and doin my own thing that i think im not even noticing any guys at all any more...get it? does that even make any sense?

ok thats all...grandma needs to go to bed now...good night

JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE FOREVER!

haha sorry i just didnt know what the title should be and that was the first thing that came out of my mind. even tho im not a big fan of SEXYBACK i still say...JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE FOREVER!

ok so anyway this weekend was very much fun filled. thursday i hung out with the homies from edwards...came home real late. but who cares it was all worth it. friday i hung out with ellene and we met up with cjay, shayne, and dru at on broadway. we all ended up hanging out with eunice and glenn too. we saw cathy, theresa, and their friend too. the whole night was fun. the whole weekend just felt good to hang out and see people i havent seen in such a long time. saturday and sunday i spent at home with the parentals. i needed to recover from lack of sleep. seriously i dont know if i can go out 2 nights in row anymore...shit who am i kidding...hahaha.

so this week....work work work. then on saturday me, gen, mom and dad are going to medieval times. mom and dad have never been so the bro and me are taking the parentals. yup...just the four of us...this is gonna be interesting.

dude this is sooo weird cuz summer seems to be winding down for the most part. it makes me kinda sad. it feels like i didnt get to hang out as much as i wanted to and be free this summer. oh well but the hanging out that i did do this summer was great and im still filled with great memories. i just hope that its the same with everyone else.
at least i still got about 3 weeks left...sorry csu kids...if it helps...the rest of my summer's not gonna be the same.

well until next time, adios

damn that justin timberlake

so i woke up monday morning and thought to myself...damn i should really call in sick today. of course i dont and i get ready for work. i get to work and as usual i hear aj's playhouse on the radio. then they said, justin timberlake's gonna be at the best buy at mission valley later that afternoon and that the first couple hundred people will get tickets to his concert and go to his listening party....MOTHER FUCK! just my luck huh?! i do a lil complaining and go about my business at work. oh well.

so this weekend was nice. friday's was sandy's birthday dinner extraveganza. not really extraveganza...just a gathering of friends. oh how i missed them. saturday was jen's baby shower...aww she was sooo cute. yay! my favorite part was the food. eating at jen's place has always been a favorite of mine! sunday went to church and lunch with my family as usual. then went to kristine's place later that night for a lil bit.

oh yea we also had "4th meal night" last night at kristine's place. thanks jen for cooking. that was great. too bad it was actually like my 1st real meal of the day. hahaha. nonetheless it was damn tasty.

my cycle of light sleeping is happening again. not fun.

and with that, i leave now. hopefully to try and sleep a full 8 hours. peace BIIIOOOOOTCH!

imma sleep on dat...

damn mtv, making the band, and their marathons!! oh god its my guilty pleasure. all day long their songs get stuck in my head, "and imma sleep on dat, sleep on dat..", "you keep on stressin me, you you keep on stressin me", "i ain't tryna be ruuuuuude, but these dudes keep grabbin' me they keep on grabbin' me!" oh god when will it end!!!

besides watching endless amounts of mtv marathons, vegas was great as usual. it was really nice to run into friends i havent seen in a long time...dang only in vegas eh?! i did come up on the tables...pretty big but not as big as i couldve been but nontheless i still came up.

i recently found out i still quailified for calvet...WOOHOO!!! what a load off my shoulders. oh not only did i qualify they're gonna refund me my tuition from spring quarter AND my parentals said i can keep it..TALK ABOUT CAME UP!!! but prolly wont get the money for a while cuz you know school, they never wanna give up the money fast.

oh and before i forget, welcome home nick miller and nick goodman!

so im thinking about dying my hair all black cuz i dont wanna deal with it when school comes around again. hmmm i dunno black hair? i havent had all black hair since freshman year i think...geeessssss.....

last but not least...IM GONNA BE AN AUNTIE AGAIN!!! my kuya's having a baby. YAY MORE KIDS TO SPOIL