stuck in a rut

i admit, i never call anyone. i really dont know how i turned out to be like that. i remember when i was in junior high and high school i used to call friends and actually have conversations with people. somewhere down the line i have stopped doing that. for the past month i've been trying to figure out why and i still have no answer. i've said it before but i think im regressing as a person. maybe i've just been thinking this way lately cuz its sooo damn hot. you guys must think im just talking crazy talk. it just seems like as soon as i start to live a life, it all comes to a screetching hault for one reason or another and everyone else around you is having the time of their lives. oh well. thats life. well at least vegas is just around the corner...YAY!